Hello there my We Are 1 Voice Family…
I apologize for the gap in time since my last blog. I have been battling an interesting bout of depression. And it was a more time consuming and a lot harder to come out of this time.
It felt as if I had slipped further in the hole the moment I felt like I had my foot grounded to begin my climb back up.
I lost sight of the light at the top of the hole for a while.
And I panicked, and went through shell shock, and had anxiety attacks, and felt like I couldn’t breathe a lot of days.
I began to get sick and my body was becoming more prone to injury.
Yea, it was pretty serious.
Oddly enough, for how hard this bout hit me, I have come out with such a sense of peace.
I didn’t become suicidal.
I instead, did something most people are afraid to do, because they fear the hurt of rejection;
I went to a group of people that I love and trusted and I admitted out lout that I need help.
I explained to them that although they may not understand it, this is VERY REAL to me.
I sought out guidance from my Creator and I took the time out to take a really good look at me.
What, in all of this, can I do something about? How can I get better? What haven’t I tried before that has the potential to work now? What am I doing to help find a solution? Am I holding myself accountable?
My life has taken a lot of turns and has gone thru a lot of drastic changes, even in the short period of time since I took on this blog…
Even more so since I have been informed of, acknowledged, and accepted my diagnosis.
I haven’t always done well with change, especially in circumstances that cause me to jump ends of the spectrum;
But now, I’m learning to accept change. Change means you are growing. Change means that nothing is permanent.
If that doesn’t bring you some kind of peace…
Just to know, NOTHING is permanent.
Not your depression, not this storm in your life, not the hard days, not the days when you have no idea what to do, the days when you feel alone, none of these are permanent. They are just momentary circumstances.
You can get through this moment.
Today, I am encouraging you.
You can and you will get through this… Whatever this may be for you…
And you are NOT alone… Reach out to someone for help… Talk to people… Be willing to open up long enough to find someone who is willing to listen… The people are there…
If you can’t find one, contact me…. And I’ll do my best to help you…
I don’t promise to have all the answers, quite frankly, not even most, but I do understand, and I know it’s not easy…
The light is almost visible…
Just keep pushing, if for no other reason, because whether or not YOU believe it, I know you really can.